Jun 29 2001

i’m so tall, you can’t get over me

Hello darling ones.

After last night’s emotional outpouring, I am feeling a little beaten and shaky. Last night proved to be pretty brutal. I was a wreck and I am not even sure why. I feel like I came out of the closet or something. Maybe I did. Admitting it is the first step and all, right?

So I’ve said it and I can’t take it back. Though I really wish that I could. I feel so incredibly vulnerable and I hate that. I am out there now. I have no secrets. All of me, there is no hiding, you know it all. Honesty hurts sometimes, doesn’t it? Am I even making any sense?

So enough of that boring and depressing nonsense, I will keep you updated on the progress of the jodi 3.0 redesign. I am sure it will prove most interesting and the toughest challenge I have ever faced in my entire life. I hope I am strong enough.

In other news, my right nipple itches like hell. It’s probably cancer.

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Posted on Fri, 29 June 2001 at 11:04 am

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This post has 2 comments. Add your own.

andrea

I respect you a *lot* for having the courage to write something like that. It brought me to tears.
29 Jun 01 at 12:19 pm #
Skattie

You shouldn’t ever want to take that back, J. The self-deprecation, yes, but the writing itself was powerful and honest. Most of us can only aspire to that.
29 Jun 01 at 10:59 pm #

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Can I get an AMEN! This woman responds to the Jezebel Hullabaloo the way I wish I could have, had I not been blacking out with the rage. I agree that drinking a lot and having a lot of sex with different men is not feminism. It might be your lifestyle choice and a lot of fun -- go you, but it has nothing at all to do with being a feminist. I think once I simmer down a bit, I will chalk up the whole Hullabaloo to a few drunk 20something girls being stupid and naive, because, that's what 20something girls do. We've all done it, and not to get all sage woman of the earth, but something changes for women when they turn 30. I don't know what it is, I cannot define it, but other woman will agree 30 is a magical age where suddenly you seem more yourself, you think before you speak, you look back at your 20something self and realize what an idiot you were, but you still love that girl. I'm just hoping these Jezebel-girls will be so kind to their 20something selves when they look back at how absolutely foolish they were. {via fimoculous, whose comments are all men discussing the issue which makes me a little sad}. [+]

I had avoided the whole Jezebel hullabaloo until this morning when I was reading Mediation's thoughts on the nonsense. I followed his links to the Metafilter discussion and it was after watching the video there that I blacked out from sheer rage. I'm so angry I can't even write anything coherent. [+]

I just applied for a for reals job for the first time since 2000 (three fors in one sentence, go me). I feel a little like I'm going to barf. I forgot how nerve-wracking it is to want something like this. [+]

"Never mind that while he was on my ass about being in lust with a celebrity who lives in France and has two children with a French model, Greg was in love with a girl from, you know, like, down the street." Peabo cracks me up. [+]

I am celebrating my independence by sitting around in my pajamas until noon. [+]

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