lane and i have this odd flirty thing going on. lane’s been married for roughly 100 years and he’s so in love with his wife it’s an amazing thing to see. lane’s one of my most favorite friday night bowlers. he calls bud light’s “Tasty’s,” he wears an old skool minnesota north stars hat and [...]

it was a bad day at work.
ten percent of my company was laid off today. it sounds much more stunning that way and i want it to sound amazingly shocking, because i am dazed and shaken still. . . 12 hours after i heard the news.
for a company of 118, 11 people is a lot [...]

i am bruised, battered, sad and shaken. but i’ll be ok. sadly, that is all i am at liberty to say at the moment. expect more later.

when i first read of harrison’s death my mind immediately flashed to that scene in High Fidelity when they learn that Laura’s dad has died. Barry immediately goes into his schtick about the Top Five songs about death, a laura’s father tribute list. he starts listing off songs like “leader of the pack,” and “tell [...]

so the world has lost another beatle:George Harrison dies at age 58. it’s sad when our artistic heroes die.
i fell deeply and hopelessly in love with the beatles when i was a freshman. i remember living with my family in that old house on Court Street. I had a teeny, tiny room that was really [...]

i’d like to nominate as the best invention of the 20th century: Louis Rich Turkey Cheese Dogs.

i’m currently in love with Look at Me by Jennifer Egan. It’s this wonderful, beautiful, imperfect book that i can’t seem to put down. i’m giving up sleep to read just a few more pages.
today, at work, ella asked me what the book was about.
i hate that question. what’s it about? it’s so hard [...]

apparently i am feeling better, both physically and mentally. i dunno why, it just happened.
it dawned on me as i was watching dawson’s creek. i really am hopelessy, totally, completely enthralled by that silly show. maybe it’s part of me trying to recapture some sort of high school thing that i missed. i never got [...]

after much debate, i decided to forgo the morning shower before heading to work. i’ve been “working from home” this morning. which really meant reading the wretched work i did yesterday, eating scrambled eggs with salsa and deleteing thats, nows and justs from the aforementioned wretched work.
i decided to boycott the shower because i didn’t [...]

Heart of the City this week is all about bowling. hehe.

my phone rings so infrequently that i pick it up every few weeks just to make sure it still works. i am always oddly disappointed when i hear the dial tone.
i need someone to take the book away from me so i can go back to sleeping and trying to get better.

we are all alone.
we are what we see.
that’s what the book i am reading keeps telling me. i am in love with this book. it’s breaking my heart all over the place. it’s everything i wanted from “smart vs. pretty” and “stick figure: a diary of my former self” and so much more.
my head [...]

25-Nov-01
11:15 PM
Again, I am up when I should be sleeping. I am not sure what the problem is; I have ceased looking for an answer. It’s just something that’s going to happen for a while, this compulsion to pour out random bits of nonsense when I should be asleep, or trying to sleep.
It’s not so [...]

here’s my favorite picture of thanksgiving taken by max, 3.

you know, i knew it was entirely too good to last. i knew the rain yesterday was some sort of aberration.
apparently we are under a winter storm watch. it’s going to last at least two days. i should be thankful that we’ve gotten out of nearly a month of winter. but you know, i really [...]