your side of the bed
sometimes when i am extra lonely, i will line up all the spare pillows on your side of the bed and pretend there’s someone there.
i call it your side of the bed, even though there is no one to claim it. it’s just not my side of bed. usually i sleep on my side of the bed, leaving your side empty waiting to be claimed.
so when i am extra lonely and have lined up the pillows just so, i will scootch backwards until i can feel the pillows. and then as i drift off to sleep i can pretend it’s someone there. someone who wants to claim your side of the bed.
when i am extra, extra lonely and my tossing and turning has shooed all the pillows away, i will curl up on your side of the bed. i will curl up there as small and tight as i can and pretend you are away on a trip or you had to go into work early.
i will lie there on your side of the bed and pretend that i am comforted by your smell, by the warmth that you left behind. i will fall asleep pretending there is someone who will return, eventually, to claim your side of bed.
it’s just pretend. there really is no harm in it. i know that side of the bed is mine, all the sides are mine. it’s my bed.
but sometimes i like to pretend.
jodi, that’s sweet. I have a tear in my eye. Honestly.
16 Jul 02 at 12:23 am #You shouldnt have to use pillows. If I weren’t taken, I would stand in for the pillows. Sounds like a nice place to be.
16 Jul 02 at 12:45 pm #that’s why I have one of those big body pillows. they come quite in handy for such nights.
16 Jul 02 at 5:24 pm #too cool…too painful…very good.
17 Jul 02 at 1:16 am #ya know what, I do the same thing. they don’t quite have the heat output one would desire, do they?
17 Jul 02 at 5:35 am #Well I wish I was the pillows…….
17 Jul 02 at 4:06 pm #dat was sweet, i do the same thing…
05 May 03 at 8:54 pm #