will anyone ever be able to love me?

and this is why i try not to talk about being lonesome:
Jodi C says: i skipped the writing contest when she planned the bbq
sister #3 says: that wasn’t good
Jodi C says: i think spending the entire three-day weekend alone would not have been good for me
sister #3 says: you do it all the time! hahahahahaha
Jodi [...]

i feel like there’s salt in my eyes. i cried myself to sleep last night so my eyes are extra puffy and feel all grainy.
the crying myself to sleep came pretty suddenly. i was reading in bed and around 2:30am i decided to turn out the light and get some shut eye. the loneliness and [...]

dreams, dreams, dream, i felt like i had 50 dreams last night.
dream #1: i lived across the street from a coffee shop called down under. both me and the coffee shop were located in minneapolis. in the dream i realized that the coffee shop workers could see out their window right into my bedroom. i [...]

from the deep, dark, dirty confessions file:
i am totally, utterly and completely head over heels in love with the Pink song “Don’t Let me Get me.”
i am weak, i can’t help it.

i am continuing in my quest to get all the songs from the westerberg show. tonight my quest brought me i will dare.
i’ve been listening to it on repeat for the past 30 minutes and each time i get goosebumps and lumps in my throat.
when did i become such a goober?

john and james just rushed by. i heard them coming.
“let’s ask jodi,” james said as the duo rounded the corner to my hall.
“jodi what’s more complex football or baseball,” john asked as he stopped momentarily.
“football,” i said instantly.
from the way john sighed and james laughed as the walked on, i guess that was the wrong [...]

so the bossman said i could boot outta here early– his only request make it seem semi-respectable. so i’m staying for another hour.
of course most of this last hour has already been filled with discussing my movie-viewing options with shawn. i really, really want to see one-hour photo or the good girl, but i [...]

at work today the hottest topic of conversation has been the serial comma. i HATE the serial comma. hate, hate, hate it. i am constantly appalled when i discover that my serial comma usuage at work has spilled over into my non-work writing. the serial comma is just superfluous.
but, it seems i am gathering [...]

this lucy statue was probably one of my favorites at the fair. the sad thing though, people had managed to chip some of the nickels out the statue. how pathetic and evil is that?

i finally got my 128MB memory card for the digicam. holy hannah, i can take most every picture i see and still have more memory. at 1800×1200 resolution, i can take 196 pictures and at 900×600 i can take 788!
let’s hear it for technology.
in other news, i don’t feel like going to work today. it’s [...]

so i lied. i was gonna write 492 things about the past two days. but then i went to happy hour which turned into a few happier hours than i intended. the drinks were pink yummy girlie drinks and they went down like juice and i had a few of them in the happy few [...]

i’m never taking another day off again. it just takes too damn long to catch up on everything. i’ve been so busy with meetings and what not that i haven’t had a chance to get any work done.
soon we’re zooming off to michelle’s birthday happy hour and then i’m hoping that i will have enough [...]

I got into work this morning and Michelle stopped me in the hall.
“I saw your niece on TV this morning.”
“what?”
“Yeah she was on the KARE 11 morning show for winning the Lucy lookalike contest.”
“really?”
“Yeah they were talking about how the stolen Lucy was found in St. Paul and then said something about little Jaycie Kimball [...]

big fair.
big fun.
big blister.
now i am gonna go hose myself off and curl up in bed. pictures and stories to follow tomorrow.