Sometimes the fates give you exactly what you need

For the past week or so someone has been doing some in-depth research here on iwilldare.com about the TTHM. I don’t know who it is. It’s been fascinating watching the mystery searcher plunder through seven years of archives.

The mystery searcher is not the legendary TTHM. I asked him. This has, of course made the mystery all that much more tantalizing.

While following the search today I ran into long unread posts like this one about the first e-mail the TTHM ever sent me. Let me tell you, this was exactly not the thing I needed today.

I’ve had a bad day. It was one of those days that decimated me. I was up early to make an 8 a.m. meeting that decided not to start until 8:15 and it just got worse from there. I had shitty meeting after shitty meeting, and when I wasn’t in a meeting I was staring hard at my computer screen willing myself not to cry.

Stress does strange things to us. All of this is exacerbated by the fact that I never, ever sleep. Ever.

The day was so bad that I asked Sister #2 who is in the midst of a two-week vacation in Michigan for help. If you know me, you know that I’d rather eat rusty nails while listening to Barefucking Naked Ladies with Gwen Stefani then ask for help.

I checked the mail before I rolled into Supergenius HQ after a 10.5 hour work day only to find a mystery Amazon package. I wrote it off at first, assuming it was the book I ordered for this fall’s Advanced Fiction class.

But it wasn’t. It was a book from the very same TTHM I’ve been talking about with a note that said, “Happy Anniversary Darling.”

Upon seeing that note, I lost it. I sat in Ruby bawling like a baby. It was exactly the thing I needed today.

7 Comments
  • shokkou
    August 8, 2007

    Lady grrl. Please see a doctor and get a prescription for sleeping aid. Gemini’s need sleep. Trying to live two lives in the time of one is stressful anyways. Living two NON-lives seems to be exxtra stressful for you. ;o) Whatever. Both of you need some sleep soon or you’ll collapse.

  • Lori
    August 8, 2007

    I *know* this blog isn’t a 360 degree look at your real life and we only get a tiny snapshot, and even then it’s a snapshot colored by how you feel at the moment you post it, but I can’t help but feel like TTHM rattles your chain every now and then … just enough to keep the spark alive. You know how to tell a story, so reading your blog is like watching a tv and feeling a connection to the characters. From this reader’s perspective, it’s just a little troublesome the way he lurks in the distance — just out of your reach. I could be way off, but I apologize if I’m out of line. But I know I’ve gone through the archives in the past trying to figure out who this guy is and why he has such a hold. It’s intriguing and frustrating … and it makes a great story. So there.

  • Jodi
    August 8, 2007

    You aren’t out of line at all. You should know you can offer opposing viewpoints whenever you want. I thrive on ideological conflict.

    I think the TTHM has such a hold because, though it is not romantic, he has loved me unconditionally for years now. It’s an entirely foreign concept to me.

    And I have to admit that he probably seems out of reach to the casual reader of iwilldare.com only because I haven’t really been putting my arm out there. You know?

  • AC
    August 8, 2007

    Seriously, I hear Ambien is where it’s at.

    Get hooked up on that.

    AC

  • mimi
    August 8, 2007

    what’s TTHM? the the husband man?

  • Heather
    August 9, 2007

    tall tall handsome man.

    There used to be this kick ass glossary here that explain who TTHM is, as well as FFJ.

    But then Jodi changed her site around and it’s gone.

  • mimi
    August 9, 2007

    thank you heather. good luck miss jodi.

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