I got lost in reverie listening to a slow, swingy song called “Shut Up and Sway Your Hips.” Once again I am back to being a Nablmo cheater. I got lost in a daydream about one of those men who disappeared with nary an excuse or a you’re just not for me. Oddly enough he [...]
Loneliness
19
Jul 07
Steeped in melancholy
It seems as though I woke up on the melancholy side of the bed this morning. Last night I had a dream about Ben Jones, a boy I loved in college. The dream was so fun and full of that special chemistry that makes you feel hopeful and alive that I was saddened to be [...]
9
Apr 03
all the sides are still mine
Like a teenage boy sneaking out to a party or a prisoner trying to fool his captors, I arranged the extra pillows and blankets to appear as though here was a body waiting for me on your side of the bed. I wasn’t trying to fool anybody but myself. I tried to convince myself in [...]
26
Feb 03
and i’ve been knockin’ most all the day
i’m in the mood to be doted on today. sadly, there’s nobody to do the doting deed. so i’m just listening to elton john and trying to write press releases and hoping there’s a new dawson’s creek on tonight.
listening to elton john always makes me think of the scene in high fidelity where rob [...]
18
Jun 02
lower than low
driving home from work i could feel myself slowly deflating, my brave face melting and total hopelessness engulf me. i sat in the chair staring into space willing myself to feel an emotion. i didn’t know what to do. i was incapacitated by the energy it would take to make a decision.
so i turned on [...]
10
Mar 02
i want someone badly
this is me trying to not be an ungrateful wench, but failing miserably.
i get to go see ryan adams do his rockstar thing tomorrow night. i get to go to work in the morning. i get to work at a job where my talent and ambition is noticed more and more with each passing day.
i [...]
3
Apr 01
words i’ve never heard
tonight i was just typing away. being my merry old self when out popped a revelation, i didn’t intend to make. it’s one of those revelations that makes your throat ache and snot start immediately flowing from your nose. you know, the kind that leads to unending tears and a sobbing fit that leaves you [...]
