he has a girlfriend. while i suspected this for quite some time, i choose to ignore it. i like to think that he chose to ignore it too, the having of a girlfriend. i mean why else would he mess around with me when he has her waiting for him?
and it’s times like now where [...]

The other night while on the phone with a friend I threw out the idea that everything I need to know about life I learned in creative writing class. Or something like that. Of course, my theory didn’t get very far because we all know everything we needed to know came in kindergarten, or chicken [...]

I spent a lot of time last night reading Lucy Grealy’s Autobiography of a Face. This is Grealy’s memoir of her life living with her face which was disfigured by a cancer that caused doctors to remove half of her jaw. The jaw removal happened when Grealy was like 10 or 11, she spent her [...]

Having gorged myself on so much alone-time I was starting to go a little crazy, I decided to call my very favorite TTHM, and he wasn’t home. This of course, made me incredibly bratty and cranky, because I was really starting to bore myself to no end. So instead of having a temper tantrum and [...]

Next week is TV Turn Off Week. I’ve been semi-doing this for nearly a year. I say semi, because while I don’t watch TV (broadcast/cable TV) per se, I am a movie junkie and still watch anywhere from two to three DVDs a week.
I didn’t turn off the TV out of any moral or noble [...]

I carry one notebook with me at a time. I use this notebook for most everything. Work, class, writing whatever comes to mind, phone numbers, random doodling, you name it, it goes into the notebook. I’ve been taking classes at the Loft Literary Center in Minneapolis for about ten months now. I’m in the midst [...]

It’s not a secret that I’m the girl no man has ever said I love you to. This isn’t exactly true, mostly because of the word love and its various meanings. I mean my dad has told me he loves me, max tells me he loves me all the time. I’ve had male friends tell [...]

I’m listening to the KS95 for Kids radiothon. I’ve spent most of the weekend listening. It’s one of those things that moved me in a way that took me by surprise. For a long time I couldn’t figure out why these stories about children with cancer, and other life-threatening illness moved me so much. I [...]

my feelings got hurt tonight. really, sorta bad– leaving me weepy and not feeling very good about myself. the hurter, didn’t mean to hurt my feelings. but hurt them he did. and he said he wants to make it up to me, to make it all better, and i just don’t know how that’s done. [...]

the artguy is a man i work with. we’ve been engaging in this incredibly fun e-mail dialog since about november. before that, he was just the enigmatic artguy who never spoke to anyone. i didn’t know anything about him except for his name. we never spoke, at all. but now we e-mail and it’s great [...]

‘ve spent a good portion of my time over the past four weeks nursing a broken heart. It is not, however, my heart that is broken. I’m not sure that small fact makes the nursing of a broken heart any easier. I’m a veteran; I know how to deal with a heart that is broken. [...]

I had a rough night last night. One of the roughest I’ve had in a long time. I was pinned to my bed in complete abject fear, sure that I was the most unworthwhile, most uninteresting, uneverything person on the face of the earth. It was a case of the mean reds, the likes of [...]

Tonight I was sitting on the phone talking to the TTHM, who is going through a nasty bit of rough at the moment, when I started crying. Not giant, gulping tears, but the kind that come from a hurt buried deep inside. The kind of tears that slip out and if you’re talking on the [...]

I’ve always been unsure of where I stand on the attractiveness scale. Being a 6′5″ fatgirl kind of keeps you guessing. This insecurity over my own attractiveness makes it really hard for me to flirt. I’m just no good at it, not at all. So when a man blatantly and repeatedly flirts with me, even [...]

Here’s a tale of winter woe, for you in warm climes who have never experienced the devastation of a winter storm. I warn you, there is some sad tales of domination that follow—you’ve been warned.
It’s been snowing for the past day and half here in Minnesota. Yeah, what a surprise! Snow in Minnesota! But [...]