like an archaeologist i keep digging through the strata in my life. however, unlike the archaeologist, the longer i dig the newer stuff i find. the old stuff i attack first, that’s easier. so long removed it’s hard to feel anything but warm nostalgia. but i realized everything from 1995 to the present can still [...]

the NY Times ran a piece on Liz Phair and her new album today. even though i am in the group of people who were kind of disappointed by here last album “Liz Phair,” i cannot deny that i’m pretty excited for something new from her.
i have a deep and abiding love of ms. [...]

for the record the outlaw is not Bitchypoo’s husband fred, rather she was just commenting on the outlaw’s (whose name is tim) marriedness.

sometimes you learn something that totally jars out of place, and suddenly you’re floating 10 feet above your head and just starring off in wonder. today i learned that the outlaw was married (you have to read through the comments to get the full scoop). i am stunned. and suddenly so thankful that things [...]

driving to work this morning in the wet, after rainy morning while listening to NPR talk about the death of johnny cash i was stunned by the beauty of the trees. the sky was the great grey-blue of impending rain and the diffused light was making the color of the trees so bright it was [...]

This morning on my way to work I listened to NPR discuss the report on the Columbia disaster that happened some six months ago. My immediate reaction was, “Oh, I bet the Outlaw is reading that whole thing.”
That was what he left behind, his love outer space and the space program.
Monday, as I was rushing [...]

Last night I called and I got the answering machine. I didn’t know what to do. In the instant it took for his message, I was able to compose myself, force my voice to sound carefree and lighthearted and left a casual message. “Hello, It’s me, Jodi. You’re probably sleeping or something. I’ll talk to [...]

last night as i was talking to the TTHM on a cool porch overlooking the river and downtown st. paul, he asked me about the outlaw. and i told him and it was then when i realized that exactly one year ago today, the outlaw was supposed to be here to meet me, and he [...]

the TTHM has a thing for world music. i have a thing for the movie high fidelity. after last night, i told him he had to come over and watch the movie, so he’ll realize how goddamn funny it is for me to say something like, “get your patchouli stink out of here.”
p.s. i told [...]

i just got this e-mail from sister #3:
Think about it. If some guy came up to you and said. Hi, I’m a real asshole. I fall in love with girls over the internet and then break their hearts. My latest girly is an ex-stripper from Canada. I had this really sweet girl from Minnesota but [...]

do you think if i were a gay man, bob mould would date me?
i’m sitting here listening to Don’t Want To Know If You Are Lonely and i’m all ’sing it bob, you are so right.’** because, you know, i’ve been really lonely and unsure lately. really, very, sadly lonely. when i get lonely, [...]

I was driving home from work late in the day. The sun was low in the sky, shining through the tress, making a heartbreakingly beautiful scene in front of my apartment building. I was smiling for no reason at all and singing along to the radio quite loudly. As I was turning left onto my [...]

I have a long history of dreams coming true. Most everyone thinks I’m a little cuckoo for thinking that my dreams actually do come true, and quite often. My family believes me, they always believe me’mostly I think because they were there when it started happening. They’ve experienced it first hand.
Sister #3 is still [...]

note to self: reading the former-outlaw’s site is not going to help your aching heart. in fact, it’s just going to make your eyes well up with tears and get frustrated and hurt all over again.
damnit! how can he not like me anymore? i just don’t understand. i’m a good person, i’m mildly attractive, i’m [...]

aak. i feel a little like i got run over by a bus. after the emotional turmoil of this morning the last thing i really needed to do was spend the night babysitting jaycie and max. but it was unavoidable. probably a good thing that i didn’t spend the night by myself rehashing my conversation [...]