Well, Darling Ones, The day I was anxiously anticipating has come & gone. Yesterday was my Social Security disability hearing. Three years after my stroke, two(ish) years after applying, two rejections, and roughly 15 minutes of a hearing, the judge granted my claim for Social Security disability. Ya girl is getting on the dole! I’m relieved and overwhelmed. My friends and fam are over the moon for me. My mom even cried when Sister #4 told her. I love the…
Art & Feeling Safe in Your Body
Hiya Darling Ones, How goes it? Here in the North Star State we’re in for a blizzard that could drop anywhere from 4-22 inches of snow on us according to the weather terrorists. Of all the things I’m good at, hunkering down is probably what I’m beat at. An introverted spinster who’s lived alone for 25+ years? I am the Serena Williams of hunkering down. My hunkering plans include catching up on my many ignored crochet projects. I’m a month…
Stroke Me Day 1095: Three Years In
Hola Darling Ones, Tomorrow, March 6th, marks the third anniversary of my stroke. Time flies when you’re learning how to be disabled, struggling with money, and grieving. Three years since I called 911 and none of those men believed me when I said I had a stroke. Three years since I heard the cop making fun of me, “She thinks she had a stroke. She googled.” All cops really are bastards. I will never not be a hot ball of…
Thoughts Upon Listening to ‘Cool it Now’
Hi Darling Ones, Last night I had a dream about watching a pornographic version of Bell Biv DeVoe’s “Poison” video with my mom, sisters, niblings, and Hanif Abdurraqib. What makes this odd is I do not remember what the “Poison” video looks like. I refuse to go look, on principle. This dream is why I’ve been listing to New Edition today. Obviously. I loved New Edition as a kid and that loyalty is why I never feel for New Kids…
Vroom Vroom
Hi Darling Ones, Using a wheelchair “out in the community” is a trip. My unjanky wheelchair arrived Thursday, delivered by a man with tiny American flag jewelry on his shoelaces. I’m not entirely sure what to call it. It was like this little flag pins politicians wear on their lapels, but on the laces of his brown leather shoes. Because nothing scares me more than being alone in my house with a white guy my age, I learned so much…
I Don’t Want to Wait
Oh Darling Ones, As I type I’m snotting my way through the Junior Prom episode of “Dawson’s Creek” and sending warm vibes up to my friend Christa in Duluth. She is also a member of Team Pacey whose heart is heavy with the news of James Van Der Beek’s death. He was only 48. Van Der Beek was the star of “Dawson’s Creek.” Long time readers might remember my love for The Creek. I discovered the show round the same…